The last few weeks have been really challenging for me as a new mom. First of all, we started daycare two weeks ago. I went from the comfort of knowing she was being cared for by my mom (I turned out fine, right?), to "here stranger, take the most precious thing in my life and treat it as I would." Luckily, we found wonderful child care with the help of good friends and they have been great to Aubrey.
Things had just started feeling comfortable again when Aubrey came down with an ear infection. Parenting fact: whenever you feel like things start to go smoothly, they always throw you a curve ball.
The first time your child is sick is a real threat to all of the instincts you have developed as a mom to that point. You suddenly are unable to calm the child you have spent months getting to know and everything you think you've learned has gone out the window.
It all started Thursday night with screaming. My baby was in PAIN and I knew it, but I didn't know why. Then came the fever. I was a little worried, so I called her doctor who ran through the signs of an emergency, and sure enough...in about an hour...she had all of them. Kyle wasn't home, and I wasn't going to wait for a call back, I threw Aubrey in the car and we headed to the hospital by ourselves. The only thing worse than taking your infant to the ER is taking her alone. But, as it was, I didn't get phone reception at the hospital so we were in parental limbo.
After a couple of hours in the ER, we were released with meds and Aubrey went right to sleep as soon as we got home. Of course, I didn't sleep at all. I was completely beside myself over an all-too-common ear infection. She ran a fever almost all night, which had me contemplating sleeping on her floor...seriously, I considered it.
The next day was no better...worse, in fact. Poor thing was either sleeping or crying all day. She wouldn't let me put her down, even for a second. I went the entire day until Kyle got home without even brushing my teeth and barely eating. I stood by the counter and picked Pringles out of a can for lunch. Even on my worst days during maternity leave I at least took a shower and brushed my teeth. I felt so helpless while I waited for the meds to kick in and provide her some degree of relief.
Finally, they did. At about 5:00 that night...just in time for daddy to get home and enjoy the first smile all day (of course). Parenting fact number two: they are always on their "A-game" when dad gets home. Luckily, I am married to the wonderful man that I am, who brought home takeout from one of my favorite Italian restaurants in hopes of lifting my spirits even a tad. It did.
She spent the rest of the weekend gradually improving. We're still not 100%, and I say we because I spent most of the weekend with my nerves on edge and a less than normal amount of sleep. But tonight, I think I'll be able to rest peacefully. Starting at 9. :)